dn kserw ti kanei ts anthropous toso kakous...dn kserw ti tous kanei toso aplistous wste na mn einai me tpt kalimenoi k na theloun pada parapanw...se olous tous tomeis k oxi mono ton uliko tomea....pragmatika dn kserw gt ine ena toso katastrofiko alla k autokatastrofiko plasma....ena plasma p toso pl agwnizete na kerdisei kapia pragmata ta opia odws thelei k apla mesa s mia stigmh xwris kamia skepsh apla ta gremizei OLA....ets apla.....xwris kamia skepsh.....dn kserw GIATI gnte auto opws dn kserw k gt EGW prp na to ipostw enw den to kanw.......alla opws eixe pei kapote k i latremenh mou yaya i opia distixws exei pleon figei...agori m na exc to kefali psila k na mn les psemata ute na perneis apofaseis en vrasmo psixis.....o kosmos ein asximos k pseftikos....poso dikio eixe??to vlepw TWRA k tha to vlepw kathe mera megalonontas...mn ebistevese POTE KANENAN para mono ton gamimeno eauto sou...OUTE TIN IDIA S TN MANA RE.....o monos pou dn tha s afisei POTE ine o egwismos k i perifania sou...AUTA na kratas otan oloi ta xanun...auta kai tin alithia otan i aloi zun sto psema.....klnxta k pragmatka wres wres euxome na mn eixa vgei apo to spiti mou ekino to vradu.....

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dn iparxei tpt xeirotero apo to na zeis me amfivolies...na mn kses pion kai ti na pistepseis....i akoma xeirotera....na fovase pws auta p exeis pistepsei einai ola ena PSEMA.....pfff dn kserw ti alo na pw panw sto thema epd dn eimai k pl sta kala m alla sgra i AMFIVOLIES einai ena saraki p mera me tn mera katastrefoun tin psixh mas k ts sxeseis mas ite filikes ite erwtikes ite otidipote.....o fovos na ebisteuteis i akoma xeiroterea na ebisteuteis kserwdas oti tha pligotheis auto o fovos einai o xeiroteros...einai auto p kanei ton anthropo MIZERO k kleismeno se 10000 amines p pistevun oti tha ton kratisun asfali....alla autes i amines oso asfaleis k na mas kratane mas apotrepoun apo to na ZISUME k na NIWSUME....pros to paron sinexizw to paron m me arketes na mn pw gematos amfivolies k tha dw pou tha me odigisei k pou tha me vgalei...to mono siguro ine oti monoi geniomaste k monoi tha kataliksume.....i diadromh isws ine epiponh i xarmosinh alla t apotelesma to idio....monaksia....euxome i prstroi apo esas na mn kataliksete ets alla ya emena dn vlepw ali kataliksh...isws fteei p eim atherapefta itopathis....:)....k mizeros...alla autos eimai....)

 Kitaw gurw mou se olo ton kosmo kai to mono pou vlew einai pina arwsties ftwxia mia ewnia katathlipsh twn teleutewn 2 xronwn.....dn borw para na skeftw kai na pistepsw ton stixo enos komatiou pou akuw sinexeia k leei 'obliteration never looked so divine'.....mipws ime arketa atuxos wste na zisw tin anthropinh tragwdia ts epoxhs m?...arketa atuxos wste na eima meros tis...?Den kserw ti na pw akoma k egw p eimai maxitikos ws anafora ta anthropina dikewmata k to mellon MAS exw arxisei na xanw tin pisth mou.....pistevw pws tha dimiurgithei telika mia nea pragmatikotita...mia 'nea taksh twn pragmatwn' k i diadikasia genisis tis tha einai ekpliktika epiponh k isws xronovora GIA OLOUS MAS.....autoi p tha to adeksoun tha einai i themeliwtes tis....to zitima afu tha xtistei na xtistei me ta dika MAS metra k stathma k oxi me ta dika TOUS.....na xtiste panw se anthropismo eilikirnia k endiaferon gia to sunolo k oxi se kseftismeno fasismo k prosopiko simferon.....emeis DEN THA ZISUME KALA....eidika i elines....ofiloume omws k exume XREOS na paradosume sta pedia mas kt kalitero...dn kserw PSO kltra dn kserw kan an borume na ta kataferoume alla sgra OFILUME na prospathusoume....osoi dn t katanoite auto iste katadikasmenoi....iste katadikasmenoi na ziseste mia zwh WS IPOXEIRIA TOUS.....kante...na exume kai kapion na koroidevoume

 Pws borw na mn se misisw....?pws borw na mn misisw enan anthropo pou mu dilitiriase tin zwh me PSEMA enw egw eixa enapothesei ELPIDA sto prosopou tu...?pws na mn misisw enan anthropo p ekane tin kathe mera m na fadazei vasano...?pws na mn misisw ECENA....?alla perimena k alla m irthane....alla PISTEVA k NOMIZA i mallon gia na eimai swstos ALLA ME AFISES EC NA NOMIZW KAI NA PISTEVW....kai alla apodeixtikane.....giati kaneis pote apo tin arxh den dixne to prosopo tou...?gt???ti tha kerdises krivodas to....PERISOTERO MISOS apo auto p tha pernate an t dixnate eksarxhs....gt skotonete tin elpida kai kapies fores tin dinatotita enos anthropou na agapisei...?gt skotonete psixes...?gt fernete thlipsh....?me pio dikewma??....kai sigoura iparxoun k TA THRASITATA KATHIKIA p tha poune gt k c emas to kanane....DN FTEME EMEIS....vres autous p s to kanane k pare ekdikish mn pligoneis opion vrethi brosta sou.....k vevea einai k i ipolipooi p lene EIMAI KAKOS ANTHROPOS....e kses kt?OK NAI ISE alla mn to kriveis DIKSE TO MAS I PES TO MAS GIA NA TO KSERUME NA MN S PISTEPSOUME K NA MN S AGAPISUME......osws ponos exete eisprakssei k alos toso sas aksizei...k euxome me olh mou tn kardia k EC k kathe alos san ecena na ponaei MIA ZWH.....k na kleei k na vasanizete k na ton ftinun....afieromeno stous pseftes k ts ipokrites pou den dixnun t alithino ts prosopo...PSOFATE

  Mou lipoun oi omorfes kseniastes meres pou epeza balla me tous filous sto mikro ikopedo eksw apo to spiti mou.....mou lipoun i meres pou to mono p ekana ta vradua itan na mazevomaste kai na pezume oloi mz epitrapezia....m lipoun ta athwa pedika kalokeria me tous filous k ta gluka vlemata olwn tous....mou lipei na eimai paidi....omorfes meres k nuxtes 7-8 xronia pisw....hremh zwh.....xwris ixnos ponirias....imastan oloi kala k an tsakonomastan apla kitiomastan sta matia pezame bounies k sto telos tis imeras ola kala
  Auto einai p m lipei peristro....i eilikrinis pediki psixh p oloi krivoume mesa mas.....kai mou lipei giati anagastika na tin afisw pisw edelws apotoma kai ksafnika stin zwh mou....anagastika an zisw ston kosmo sas...enan kosmo pseftiko pou o kathenas kitaei ton GAMIMENI MIZERO EAUTO TO prospathwntas na arnithei oti o enas exume tn anagh tou alou....enan kosmo pou me tis fimes k ta logia mono pou vgazei katastrefei oloklires zwes k ikogenies k enan kosmo pou dn boreis na ton antimetopisis me ena xamogelo opws tous filous stin pedikh sou hlikia
  Den kserw an m teriazei autos o kosmos alla sigura ematha na epiviwnw se auton parolo p oso megalwnw ginete duskolotero...alla akoma den mporw na katalavw gt oi anthropoi alilokatasparazonte san ta thiria....gt einai toso arwstimeno auto to plasma p legete anthropos??...gt protiamei to psema apo tin alithia to dakru apo to gelio tin mnaksia apo tin agalia...?e lipon egw den tha ginw POTE san esas sas to orkizome....oso k an me xtupate oso k an m prodidete oso k an patate k m gamate tn psuxologia kathe mera egw dn tha sas kanw tin xarh na sas MISISW...dn tha kaliergisw alo misos....tha sas agapaw k as mn to thelete......

  erxete opios thelei....menei opios borei.....TELOS....pote den imun koinwnikos i anoixtos tupos to aditheto tha elega....snob kai isws malakas imun k eimai....alla oxi epd eimai kakos.....alla epd fovame.....FOVAME  ts anthrwpines sxeseis.....ute 20 xronwn den eimai k fovame oti PALI kapios tha me pligwsei k tha m gamisei tin psuxologia.....autos o fovos pleon exei ginei kommati tou eautou mu.....pada afinw anixtes portes kai pada dinw eukeries sta atoma na boun stin zwh mou....alla na pw kai tin alithia??...exw papsei na prospathw EGW g ts alous...menw pathitikos perimenodas apla autoi na me prosegisoun gt fovame.....kai otan egw prwtos prosegizw kapion ine gt pl apla eida kati se auton p latrepsa....einai giati to exw anagh kai einai giati opws oloi mas exw k egw kapies anages kuriws esthimatikis oloklirwsis kai upostirikseis p apla kapia atoma fenete oti boroun na kalipsoune......
  Otan lipon egw parw tin duskolh apofash na stamatisw na eimai pathitikos me tin idia tin zwh mou k na prospathisw gia kapion kai na ton valw stin zwh mou dinome....dinome oloklirwtika k xwris kanenan edniasmo...etsi eimai k profanws einai ligo arga tharw gia na alaksw twra....parola auta kathe mera pou pernaei den mporw na min ksexnaw OLES autes tis sxeseis k dn enow mono erwtikes p teliwsan ADOKSA me pligomenh hlia me pligomeno egwismo me pligomenh autopepithish k me polla GIATI opws exw ksanapaei kathws egw PROSPATHISA k o alos apla me petakse....san ena ruxo pou to foras ena mina kai meta apla dn s aresei......DEN EIN ROUXO O ANTHROPOS K I PSIXH TOU GAMW.....mia kathigitria agglikwn m k pl agpimenos m anthropos kapote otan imun 15 m eixe pei.....se kserw apo 6 xronwn k irhe kairos na pareis to simadikotero mathima apo emena enan anthropo p exei ftasei ston pato k exei ksanasikothei polles fores.....tin kitaksa adimonodas na akusw....gurise me vlemma p dn afise tin prosoxi m na ksefugei k m eipe....panw apola prosexe pou dineis tin kardia sou.....den mporun na sikosun oloi tin euthinh tis....
  Kathe mera lpn pou pernaei mexri apo tte mexri k auth akrivws tin stigmh kai ts epomenes kai olh mou tin zwh isws tha skeftome GIATI SAS EDWSA TON EAUTO MOU....KAI GIATI ME PETAKSATE....mexri na vrethei autos o anthropos pou tha me agaliasei tha me filisei k tha m pei me kathe ixnos eilikrinias sta matia tou pws me agapaei k pws me thelei stin zwh tou...tote tha niwsw mia anakoufisi...auto omws den simenei oti mporei na m kratisei opws eipa erxete opios thelei menei opios BOREI.....:)....prosexete pou dinete tin kardia sas k panw apola na iste austiroi m ts alous k kuriws me tn eauto sas......euxomai na boreseis na mineis ya para pl kairo akoma...dn lew ya pada gt tha me lene malaka....alla isws mesa mou to euxome na boreseis na mineis k ya pada...:).....na prosexete

  Kai otn den ksereis ti na kaneis kai ti na pistepseis....tote ti kaneic???.....pnigese mesa se ametrites skepseis kai akoma prstres amfivolies kai exeis tin anagh apo kapou na piasteis...apo mia siguria apo ena siguro vlema....ine zwtikh anagh...na vreis kati na pistepseis na vreis kati na kratitheis alliws tha vouliakseis....kai to palevw kathe mera.....KATHE MERA.....kathe mera einai mia prospatheia na kratithw apo kapou.....as me voithisei kapios..:):)

  Eixa ksexasei pws einai na PONAS....eixa ksexasei pws einai na niwtheis evalotos etimos na katareuseis....kai auto giati 2 xronia twra zousa pathitika..epeidi fovomun akrivws auto....TON PONO.....eixa pei oti den tha ksanaponesw.....tha vgalw auto to periergo pragma pou legete SINESTHIMA gia arketo kairo apo tin zwh mou....tha ekana oti mu arese teleiws pathikia....tha ksupnaw tha pigenw stin sxolh mou tha pinw enan kafe kai tha kimame koroidevontas ton eauto mou oti eimai kala kai zw hremos.....eixa pei tha minw makrua apo sinesthimatikous desmous pou apetun gia emena toulaxiston na dwseis tn kardia sou.....makrua apo isxires filies apo erwtes apo zestes stigmes me tin ikogenia kai apo xarumenens pareistikes nuxtes....eixa klistei ston eauto mou kai sto dwmatio mou...pisteva oti ets tha ksefugw apo ton pono....alla pws mporusa na ksefugw apo auto to vlemma sou....???apo auta logia pou mu thumisan toso polu auto pou ithela kai epsaxna...apo auth tin eikona pou toso pothusa....PWS....???....den mporusa.....mou eipane...'keros einai na ksanaziseis'....oloi m to eipane kai kuriws o eautos mou....foovomun....ine k tha einai o megaliteros fovos mou o opios me sapizei.....na ksekinisei kati pou toso thelw kai exw anagh kai na teliwsei adoksa...den to thelw....to fovame....tha me dialisei....gia allh mia fora......kai oloi eseis pou ton teleuteo xrono mou ferthikate skarta na kserete pws egw epapsa polu kero na kanw kako kai auto itan to euxaristw sas....????kserw pws iparxei ena atomo ekei eksw pou tha mou mazepsei ta kommatia....opws kserw oti tha ginw kommatia kapia stigmh KSANA....sas euxaristw p me kanate na ksanazisw akoma k an auto simene na thumithw auto p egw orizo ws ton megalitero PONO......na kserete pws to euxaristw m einai ironiko......sas euxaristw pou mia zwh twra  mou thumizete auto p pada elege i mana mou k dn ithela na pistepsw....PWS O KOSMOS EINAI KAKOS.....sas euxaristw pou pligwnete xwris na stamatate tin psixh mou...mia psixh pou pada DISTIXWS tha ebistevete kai tha psaxnei na vrei ligh agaph.....elpizw o kenurios xronos na sas kanei anthropous......:)